Please don't forget who you really are

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 18:46:14 GMT

The sweet smell of a summer rain is drifting through the open window, on a breeze that cools my sticky skin. The sound of the rain falling on each surface is distinct, and the only sound in the darkened room. Gradually, the rain falls with more determination. Pounding raindrops cast a gray veil over my view. I'm uncertain of my feelings, my future is a mystery and the present is an unanswered question. The rain does nothing to help, though doesn't make it worse. The sky brightens, and still the rain pours. And there, I rest my gaze on a single sunflower. Petals two inches long, it's brightness striking through the gray haze like the a child's balloon floating in the sky. Each petal seems to reach for the drops of rain, each drop falling with only one purpose, to refresh this sunflower. As I watch, the sky brightens, as if the sunflower itself is glowing, and the rain refracting each ray of light. The rain slows to just a few drips. And there, I believe, the sunflower has discovered it's own purpose. To love and worship the sun, and to cherish and savor the rain.

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 17:48:05 GMT

grrrrr...subway charged our check card twice for dinner last night...grrrrrrrrr

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 22:55:59 GMT

so about that business law class that i was supposed to take during the day and was then put into a night class...they uncancelled it and now im back to taking it during the day.....oi!

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 14:36:35 GMT

so my business law 2 class was cancelled for next semester, and they just put me in a different class...only thing is, it's a thursday night class...6:30-9:15....kinda sucks. the good thing about it though, is that now on tuesdays and thursdays during the day i only have one class. :) im considering maybe signing up for that other night class i hafta take before i graduate, i dunno though. well, thatas that!

ps...i think i might be back to updating a lot more...mostly abouut stupid stuff thogh :-\ there might be a few friends only posts though, becuase there are def things i dont want just anyone reading.

well thats all for now!

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 18:47:56 GMT

so basically we're purging the house of crap we don't need. im getting rid of a ton of junk. hopefully we're going to have a yard sale and make some money off of it...hopefully

i dont wanna work :(

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 15:23:13 GMT

my puppy managed to escape his kennel in the wee hours of the morning. thats no big deal...just kinda surprising, cuz it's kinda hard to do. but more importantly, he had a perfectly valid reason...he had severe diarrhea...yeahh, deeeeelightful

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 16:12:20 GMT

:( my head hurts

'Ello Governor

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 13:41:34 GMT

I’m in English class right now…I’m supposed to be rewriting a paragraph for an essay for my final portfolio, but that’s pretty much not happening. I mean, I’m definitely rewriting it, but it’s like practically exactly the same as the original. But besides that, I’m really stressed out right now I have a math test today, and an appointment with my PPD prof to figure out some stuff with my schedule next year, and work tonight. I hafta work sat & sun, 8-5. Monday I have another hand in math homework due and work that night. Tuesday I have a make up math exam, which I’m only taking because if I do my lowest math test is dropped. I also have a group presentation for accounting and an in-class 75 true or false final in business law. . I have this Portfolio, a five page paper, and a hand-in math homework due on Wednesday, as well as an important dinner for school that night, and I’m supposed to work. Then I’m home free…until Friday night…work again, Saturday I have a math final 1-4, and im supposed to work. Then I have an accounting final, but I have no clue what day it’s on. So um, yeah…stick a fork in me, I’m done. I’ll be spending all day on campus. 9-10 english class, 10-12 comp. Lab, 12-12:30 lunch, 12:30-1 app’t. with prof, 1-2 ppd, 2-3 math. UGH!

And the weather is shiiiiiitttttttttt. And I’m exhausted. I couldn’t get out of bed for the life of me this morning. Scott literally dragged me out. And I was pissed too…almost had a fit. Well, I guess that’s all, I’ll probably be back later.

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 15:11:43 GMT

i am fully exhausted. dunno exactly why but i do know at the end of this update im probably going to take a nap. and im living in sweatpants today. i dont care what you say. i have a whole lot of stuff to do though, so i really shouldnt go to bed...but i feel absolutely useless. i cant even keep my head up. oh well, i'll figure something out...hopefully...

sucks that my break is over...

yay 2 days! and i dont hafta go to class at 8 on wednesday! :) lol its changed to 9! :) yay!

ok well...time for bed

night

Just stuff...

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 16:52:50 GMT

uh yuck

Puppy tore the house apart while I was gone. There is crap everywhere, clothes, shoes, tissues, poop! And he chewed on the shoelaces of my brand new converses. I am very angry. And now I hafta clean it up. Scott has jury duty today. Sucks cuz he's going to be there all day and then tonight he hasta work til like 2 am to make up for it. So I get to entertain myself :-\ and watch CSI alone :(

Wow, didn't realize how sad that made me til I said it :-\

Can't wait til my french bread pizza is done :-D I'm starving...

Spring break starts tomorrow at 2:50! yay!

BTW I think it would be a really good idea to call animal control, cuz i'm gonna kill Messy and Stinky over here. I really can't stand it anymore. I'm seriously considering just leaving it all and coming home later with Scott and being like I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU GUYS DID THIS WHILE WE WERE GONE THIS AFTERNOON! But I won't do that, cuz it's wrong. I just want to.

Pizza's done.

Pizza's not so done.

My birthday was pretty cool. Not uber exciting, but cool. We were going to go to Olive Garden, but the wait was ridic, so we went to Cracker Barrel instead. We happen to have some pretty good memories from way back when there, so it was neat. :) Then we went to DQ for ice cream cuz I wasn't too excied about Cracker Barrel's desserts. I can't wait to see what Lisa got me :-D

I think I'm going to buy replacement laces from converse.com, cuz any other lace won't be the same. They're only $1.49 anyways...might as well. It'll be my b-day present ;)

Well, I think I'm outta things to say so...bye...

ugh tuesday

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 17:28:49 GMT

honey got skunked at 3 this morning. needless to say i didnt sleep well afterwards. i'm afraid that i may smell like skunk myself and i can't do anything about it. i hafta work tonight, 5:30-11. sucks but at least i'm working alone. not completely fun, but no one will miss me when i disappear. i am exhausted. and tomorrow is........wednesday! ;) yup....i guess it's time to get back to that homework now. peace out!

this is gonna be short

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 17:05:01 GMT

i am starving and i really dont have much to say, so this will be a short entry.

we finally got our tax money! i cant wait to go shopping. :-D
5 days til my birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
so i finally finish my math homework, and im copying it over again right, and then i realize that i copied the WRONG try at one of the problems, so i'm gonna hafta recopy it all over again.
I have class at one, so I really gotta get going to lunch, so i can get there on time..

ugh, i have a headache from thinking so hard on an empty stomach...

wow im a loser

YAY FOR SPRING BREAK BEGINNING IN 10 DAYS! i think, something like that, w/e.

Lisa's coming soooooooooooooooooooooon!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

peace dawg

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 16:32:45 GMT

i'm retarded, and embarassed.

because we're on a compressed schedule today, my 9:00 english class doesn't start until 10:45....yeah, I looked at the schedule thinking it started at 8:00 on a regular friday...so I was here at 10...hmm...yes....I think my hair is a little clond, why do you ask?

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 15:26:00 GMT

And another thing...the roads here are terrible. Most of them still haven't been plowed. It took me an hour to get to school, it usually only takes 20 minutes. Thus, the reason I am so angry that class was cancelled!

I felt like a lab rat stuck in a maze. First in the car I had to manuver lanes that were surrounded by walls of snow, then when I got to school, I had to walk through paths surrounded by walls of snow.

I should have stayed home. But no, Scott was all "you hafta go to schoooool" ugh

i'm pissed

Argh

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 15:18:09 GMT

Ok, again, no one contacted me to let me know that my english class was cancelled, I coulda stayed home until 12:30 instead of leaving at 9 to get here by 10 for a class that NEVER STARTED. This is starting to get really annoying, and if this happens again today, with any of my other classes, I swear, I'll kill someone. I just can't take it anymore. This happens ALL THE TIME.

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 16:52:47 GMT

i am so tired. last night neither scott nor i slept very well. i dunno why. i woke up with a splitting headache at 3 and couldnt fall back to sleep. scott was up every few hours, just cuz. scott hadta go to work early today, so we hadta get up and leave earlier than usual. we were gonna go to the movies tonight, but he might hafta work late and we're both feeling so crappy we might not go. lucky me i dont hafta work until 2 tomorrow.

my accounting project is driving me nuts. its not working out right. and my prof was no help.

im kinda bleck today and dont really feel like being here, there or anywhere.

in honor of my fave holiday i'm reading chicken soup for the couple's soul. very sweet book.

god im tired...

im gonna hafta go to the Student Union for lunch soon. its cold outside though, and im tired

im going to change my layout soon, i swear it.

lisa, update more...now

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 16:50:44 GMT

I won the super bowl bet! :) yayayayay even though i didnt need the bet to get the winnings ;) it was just the fact that i won :-P

i <3 leftover pasta

I'm so extremely content right now. It's a relief to just be, peaceful.

yeah well, work tonight and tomorrow night :-\ but i aint got much to say, cuz i have stuff i should be doing so peace hunny's!! :))

"I can see that nothing's changed at all, and though we falter, we don't have to fall."

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 18:44:53 GMT

Hm...still haven't eaten anything all day. PPD 102 was only half an hour long, took a quiz and left. Math 107 is at 2. Still don't feel like going outside.I could totally skip class....but it would be ridiculous. I'm going for a record of un-eatingness here...The worst part is, I was hungry when I went to bed last night. And I haven't eaten since 6:30 last night. I just don't feel like it. I wish I didn't hafta work all weekend :( It kinda ruins the whole Friday feeling...wonder what movies are playing tonight....

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 17:07:19 GMT

I just found out how my bladder feels about that magical coffee mug...

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 15:09:41 GMT

Alo! It's Friday. I'm hanging out at school to save gas. That and I just really don't want to sit alone at home. It makes me depressed to be alone. Not that I'm not really alone right now. But I just feel like being here today.

My english professor (who btw is so pregnant that she looks like she swallowed a beach ball) brought her 2 and a half year old daughter Madeline to class today. They were sick and had doctors' appointments, so we were in class for 20 minutes. It was pretty sweet.

Keith Urban is coming to Philly in August and I really wanna go. But the tickets go on sale tomorrow morning, and they're like $50. :-\ So unless I come across 'em for free, I'm prolly not going :( Speaking of, I'm listening to my yahoo launchcast radio thingy (which if you'd ever like to listen to is here) and one of his songs is playing, and i really love it. It's called Stupid Boy. Lyrics are

Well she was precious like a flower
she grew wild, wild but innocent
a perfect prayer in a desperate hour
she was everything beautiful and different

Stupid boy
You can't fence that in
stupid boy
It's like holdin' back the wind
she let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream
and you crushed her plans
she never even knew she had a choice
and that's what happens
when the only voice she hears
is tellin' her she can't
Stupid boy
Stupid boy
Oh

So what made ya think you could take a life
And just push it
push it around
I guess to build yourself up so high
you had to take her and break her down

Well she let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream
and you crushed her plans
she never even knew she had a choice
and that's what happens
when the only voice she hears
is tellin' her she can't
You stupid boy

Oh you always had to be right
but now you've lost
the only thing that ever made you feel alive
yeah yeah

Well she let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream
and you crushed her plans
Yes ya did
she never even knew she had a choice
and that's what happens
when the only voice she hears
is tellin' her she can't
You stupid boy
Oh I'm the same old
same old stupid boy

It took awhile for her to figure out
she could run
but when she did
she was long gone
long gone

Ah she's gone
Long gone
yeah she is
Yeah
oh

No one's ever gonna love me
like she loved me
and she loved me she loved me
God please just let her know
I'm sorry I'm sorry
I'm sorry I'm sorry
baby
Yeah
I'm down on my knees
She's never comin' back to me

Well, I do have some homework I should be doing. Another reason I stayed here. Cuz then I have less to distract me from doing it. hah...so funny :-P

My Magical Mug!

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 14:45:04 GMT

So I brought a travel mug full of coffee to class today...It's just your average mug...but I think it's magical. I've been periodically drinking from it for one hour, and it's still not empty....I can just imagine how my bladder is going to feel about this in a few minutes...or seconds...:-P

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 14:41:55 GMT

"You're only as strong as the coffee you drink, the hairspray you use and the friends you have"

bored

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 16:19:01 GMT

So we got a replacement car and I love it. I love it more than our car. Omg I love it so much!!!! :-D It's too bad we can't keep it forever...:( I will find a picture and put it here....I just can't find it in the right color. Ok so I found one!

:-D It's a 2005 Kia Spectra5 and I wanna marry it.

yay!

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 19:12:49 GMT

jamie's in a slightly improved mood :-D

I contacted the people I bought my books from and asked them all to pretty please send them out as soon as flipping possible and so far 2have been sent out, one will be shipped either today or tomorrow, and i havent gotten a response about the other one yet. So I am a little less freaking out.

I also got free movie tickets & a $10 gift card to the Wilkes University Barnes & Noble. :) Just for sitting in a discussion and not talking much :-P So hopefully this weekend we'll get to go to the movies after I get outta work.

One more class to get through today. Business Law. I hope it's not terrible. THe first day sucked. Hard core. We went around the class and told everyone our names, what year we are, our major, our dream job and/or current job & if we are interested in law. As if that wasn't ridiculously exciting enough to amp up my blood pressure, we got an entire autobiography of the prof. By this time I could hardly contain myself, I was having so much fun. We split up into groups and talked about what we would do if we were a particular party in the case from some movie with John Travolta that no one in the class ever saw.

On a good note, I'm not hungry anymore.

Book QUote!

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 16:28:50 GMT

This is a quote from a book I read a few months ago. I wrote it down on a post it and posted it somewhere, but didn't find it until today.

    "She smiled as she looked around the table at each of her closest friends. THere was no going back to high school, no going back to sharing every little thing and that kind of close friendship that blossomed when people saw each other every single day.
    But that was okay. She still loved her friends and she knew they loved her. They were just moving forward; changing. And change was good."
            The V-Club by Kate Brian